If you've been a reader of my blog for a while now you know I've always said that I feel like I've gone through this process because I was meant to pay it forward and help others. I've had several awesome opportunities to counsel other young women who were diagnosed and it's warmed my heart to be able to lend a helping hand or a smiling face to someone who is struggling with a scary diagnosis. To me, this was God's sign that He was using me as His servant. I had never felt so blessed ... until this past week. Something happened that topped all of this.
A week ago I joined a Facebook group for adoptive mothers-- women who have adopted and are looking to adopt. Since we are exploring all of our adoption to expand our family, I decided "why not?" and joined the group. I introduced myself and shared my diagnosis/story & also my blog. Well a few days passed and a woman from the group contacted me saying she had an adoption opportunity for me. She said that a baby boy was due May 7 and wanted to know if I wanted the baby. I wish someone could've taken a picture of my face at that moment because it was pure shock. Was this a sign from God? Was this child meant to be our baby? A million thoughts were running rampant through my brain. After talking to my husband, we decided that we're just not emotionally (or legally) ready for this so soon. It's less than a month away and it was just too soon for us. We'd barely scratched the surface of just discussing adoption and here we were with the possibility of bringing a baby home. Things got very real very fast!
So unfortunately we decided to decline the adoption offer, but we graciously passed it off to some dear friends of ours. They have been trying to have a baby for 5 years now with no success. They recently made the decision to adopt and started the legal process. Basically they were one of many couples out there "waiting on that call". We immediately thought of them and called them to offer this up to them. After they agreed, we hung up and hoped & prayed for the best. I was so torn about whether or not we'd just snubbed God. Did we just turn down His one and only offer for a baby for us?! My awesome husband reminded me "Anne, God uses people as His servants everyday. Maybe we are being use to give them their baby that they've been waiting for". That's when it hit me. We were the means that made it possible for them to become parents. Once my friend called me back to confirm me that they were indeed proceeding with the process, I broke down bawling. God truly did use my painful, ugly, horrible struggle to produce something beautiful for our friends. We never know what He's working on, or how His will is going to work out, but He is always faithful and never forgets about us or our wants. We are so excited for our friends and their brand new baby boy!
"Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus."
1 Thessalonians 5:18
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